Cancer, Seriously Boob What In the Actual Fuck

It’s been 20 days since I found the lump in my left breast.

That lumped turned out to be not just one but five tumors-five of those motherfuckers, hanging out in my body weaving their sickness in my breast and mind–Five. Of. Those. Motherfuckers.

We all react to cancer differently. I know this. I know I’m in good hands, my surgical doctor is topnotch, no doubt I’ll be fine. See, that’s my logical brain is thinking processing, reacting & working properly. Now my emotional brain on the other hand is pretty much still paralyzed with fear and running dangerously close to a classical meltdown of epic fucking proportions.

It’s been 11 days since my core needle biopsy.

It’s been 11 days since they left titanium clip in my boob, for surgical removal I am told. [fuck they haven’t even performed the biopsy & already they tell me they are leaving markers in me to remove my boobs.]

It’s been 7 days since I learned I have breast cancer

It’s been 6 days since I learned I’d be having a mastectomy. 

I will be informed of my surgery date this week, whether I will lose one or both boobs. I know tits do not make the woman, but goddammit I’m kinda attached to these guys ya know? They’ve nourished and sustained my children their first few months of life, for this I am grateful.

That’s all for now kids.

Thanks for reading my bloggy and shit. Thanks for the messages. Thanks for the goofy ass memes. Thanks for the raunchy jokes. Thanks for the tears and well wishes.

And thank to all those who’ve refrained from telling it’s ‘part of God’s plan’, –That’s another post.

peace and love

#badboob #fuckyoucancer

 

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4 thoughts on “Cancer, Seriously Boob What In the Actual Fuck

  1. I love this! I will not pretend to know what you are going through. Quite redundant but I am sorry. I am sorry for the fear and panic that is surely going through your mind. Your love and devotion to your family is amazing and beautiful. I know that you will pull through this with your middle fingers waving high in the air! Thank you for allowing me to be a part of this journey with you, reading your words and doing whatever I can to help. Preach it – #fuckyoucancer

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